Referring to dj sets as a ‘show’ or ‘performance’ doesn’t help the cause.
You made me laugh so fucking hard, what about the fucking Idjut boys? Hahahahahah did you forget everything from before you just wrote that?
Why about all the shy djs ignoring bars and playing esoteric funk? It’s not a performance yet? What else is in the job description?
And disco at the end of the night! But teasing so much disco, least I’m trying it out, and trust me you can leave any sort of spare change on the boat.
Update on the current situation: I’m teasing disco with classic house
Definitely will have a food pantry for those interested.
Do you need a lie down?
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Yeah probably, why? I am laying in bed for the past (2-3 weeks). Possible infection. Water food sleep etc are “insignificant”, if you will. Plenty of brain damage from PTSD alone. The fuck you expect homie? I’ve done nothing but fight my whole life.
So much cooler looking people in the eyes, I’m resorting to something “less cool and interesting” by posting here because I am having serious doubts about most of the folks I know. But I’m not gonna ruin anything for any of you, at the worst “Kori, you’re barely keeping it together” but I’d never lay claim to that at a random time instead of respecting my deepest emotions of fear and loneliness.
Don’t want anyone to worry though. I am in the faced up position in bed which is a lie down zone and you should rise up and meet me in 2 fucking days most likely hooked up to a respirator! Do not fucking come near me without a giant hose I guess 
hooked up to the respirator… kinda just blowin me away.
whereabouts in the world are you?
Upstate New York, making a whole move to Caliiii(!) for once. Almost LA… anyways, I may be upgrading all my brand names! Trying to stay positive and make that flight to LAX!!! Paid for one bag and I’m sticking with it and a backpack. That’s probably what most rappers do before they die. Plenty of white T’s, records, money for snacks/drinks, headphones, other personal items and enough snacks for pre-purchase.
I’m hoping you’re ok and we are just divided by the common language. However, if not please see below:
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From a person who spent 8 years in and out of hospitals i feel for you. Just know there will come happy days again. Just hang in there. And reach out to people.
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Yeah I’ve run out of folks except for very special relationships. Very special, and it’s a source of stress to be so dismembered - chow daddy all the time when I’m supposed to be somewhere in another country and on the phone, etc. So New York didn’t go well but I am still bein me, unabashed! I can get thru schizophrenia so im sketching you all out, but it’s been like this for a while and I know im definitely not gonna fail this time!!! (It’s never even happened - I fell in love with dying.) ok confession time… kind of a music freak.
No worries. I have schizophrenia as well. Tough to come down from when it’s all-on.
Do you have antipsychotic meds available? Take them?
Any contact with your psychologist?
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I got fucking dosed dude so I can’t take any psychiatric medication. Just lose myself. Trust me I’ll chew it up right before your very eyes!. I’ve totally been relying on Pills and Things for almost a century. Still got my benzos for very casual use jus to
Sit and suffer and listen to indie “on the low” (once upon a time in her attic…every moment is infinitely beautiful, even if you just don’t know it. So consistent with the logic that I genuinely use to function - and I’m hating on it cuz I can’t make better paintings - have I failed yet?)
Oh my psychologist is mentioning meds that ruin my mind, like the “beardo” disco thing/something made up just happens and I lose my mind. It’s like nothing is there and a huge part of ME!!! Is missing. So sad but that shit was baaaangin for years I’m up for a Zoloft to this day! So sick. Some meds are just awesome and those are overarchingly benzos and hell throw in an excedrin for added value! I am not going anywhere near these psychoactive meds I’m already toughing out enough brain cells not to drink water!!! Just weed and the occasional drink from the faucet but it’s no water running dream in the house form Leaving Las Vegas.
Can you share a painting? Would love to see it
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Well we’re all here for you, for whatever, big love.
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Well thank you sir, I’d say all the love in the world if I nearly could but all the best to your lovely wife and female coworkers and friends!
We’re all under the one glitterball 
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